as a little boy 
I was taught 
that - I should never ask 
why or where 
when or how 
... 
I must just accept 
that - God loved me 
that - I must love God or go to hell 
that - I must fear God or go to hell 
that - if I didn't love God I would go to hell 
that - I must love God's priests or go to hell 
that - I must obey God's priests or go to hell 
that - the priests talk to God 
that - God talks through his priests 
that - I was born a sinner 
that - sex without God's priestly approval is evil 
and fornicators would go to hell 
that - masturbators are evil 
and would go to hell 
that - homosexuals are evil 
and would go to hell 
that - I must hate the devil 
or go to hell 
that - there is only one true God 
the catholic God 
... 
I cannot ask why 
God won't stop  
his priest from touching me 
... 
I told my mother 
about God's priest touching me 
my mom - stopped talking to me 
my mom - stopped loving me 
my mom - pushed me away 
... 
I told my father 
about God's priest touching me 
my dad - stopped talking to me 
my dad - stopped loving me 
my dad - pushed me away 
... 
AhhhgggrrrrrhhhhaaaaAAA 
"God must Die" 
... 

Keith O'Connor 
aug    7    2001 
Ottawa Canada 
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